Yes... Recently, I've been in a real emotional mood... I can't really say what happened... But I can tell that it's a lot of things piled up and caused this emotional period of mine... I keep on throwing tantrums, showing "bad mood" face... I don't why.... I just need to spill out all my bad moods.... I'm sorry pals.... for being so unreasonable these few days... Please forgive me if I've ever offended you guys... I appreciate your patience on me.... Especially to my dearly ( Or should I say poor???) roommate...
Maybe it's because lots of things happened lately... And sorry I can't disclose everything in a public media... I think it's most probably I MISS HOME!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, normally I won't feel that way when I need to return to my studies in KL... Previously I feel excited (plus a bit homesick of course...) to be back in KL.... However, what can I say???? Things changed!!!!
Honestly, I don't mind to admit... Yes, I cried on the day I was supposed to return to KL... I cried at home, on the way to airport, before entering the gate, on the plane, and even at night under my blanket... I just don't know why am I acting in this way... I terribly miss my home, my family, my car, my teddy, my everything in Sandakan.... I even have a feeling that I don't want to be back in KL... I want to stay with my family... Maybe the CNY holiday was not enough for me harh??? Or is it something else??? Haiz.... Too tired to think of it....
You see... Sometimes, things don't happen in the way you wish for... There are too much unpredictable incidents in our lives... There are so many obstacles for us to overcome... For examples, in studies, I have to adapt to a new environment, new learning system... On the other hand, I still need to take care of my relationship with my friends.... Trust me, it's hard to balance between old friends and new friends.... Time's always not enough.... And things get complicated when you have some "batu api" in your groups of friends.... So... it makes me very tired to actually cope with them.... You can't keep them from brainwashing your friends or stabbing you behind while pretending so close with you in front of you... So, my way is just let it be... If your friends are so easily influenced by them, I might as well advise you to let go and find a real trust worthy friend... They'll find out one day when it's their turn to be backstabbed and by that time, you'll be the winner of everything.... No need to argue, fight, or re-backstab... Time will prove everything.... Eventhough it might take a whole life, trust me, it's worth it if you didn't do anything wrong at first....
Someday, TRUTH will reveal!!!!!!!!
Cheers to all backstabbers, may your whole life be miserable and true friends never exist....
Cheers to all being-backstabbed-ones, you're lucky because true friends are on their way....
Cheers to all trust worthy friends, you've been great!!! Please keep it up and save more friends...
God bless!!!!!!
