No more fun... Hardwork needs to begin~

This is such a black Monday... It's been raining since morning... My heart and my mood has been raining too... Today, I got back majority of my trial exam papers... I've expected bad results as I admit I was not well prepared for this trial exam and I didn't study hard enough... However, it still created a devastating blow on me when I got back those papers... I've been thinking deeply the whole day... What have I actually done since the past half year??? Did I try my best and fulfill my reponsiblity since I started this SAM course??? The answer is... I doubted it!!! This answer is really upsetting and I feel sorry for my parents... They've always been so supportive and never doubt on my ability~ And I disappointed them over and over again... I'm really sorry daddy & mummy!!! Therefore, I punished myself... I decided to give up the sport shoes which I've been longing to have it since 2 months ago... I really hope that this could be a lesson to me... turning it into a motivation for me to actually work harder~ I want to pass this course with flying colours... I really want to do so!!!! So guys, please help me!!! Reminds me all the time.... I'm left with one month to work hard~ Please work hard together with me, pray for me and wish me all the best!!!! SAM, I challenge you!!! I'm so going to prove myself this time!!!!